April 28,2011 Post #2

So hubby comes home late from work again but I keep my cool and don't get PO. Then I get news from him that he won't be able to make the ultrasound appt scheduled for next week because of a special tasking that he is supposed to be the NCOIC of. While part of me understands and is supportive part of me still wants to be a hormonal brat. This ultrasound is a full anatomy scan and cervix check. At the appt we are also supposed to discuss a referrel to UNC Chapel Hill to meet the NICU docs and team and to discuss meeting WAMC NICU docs. I really can't drive too much and I'm afraid that I won't have the energy to drive myself home after the appt. I asked a friend if she could take me and she is doing her best to see if she can work it out but she has kids of her own. Just frustrated cause I'm scared enough as it is when it comes to going to ultrasounds and now my hubby won't be there to give me any kind of support if I get any kind of bad news. I don't want to cry or throw a fit in front of him because I don't want to seem ungrateful for the support he has given me through out this pregnancy but I feel like an emotional wreck right now. I know I'll find a way to get thru it like I always do.