This past Friday my hubby took me to the Fort Bragg Fair in my new wheels (my wheelchair) so that we could get some fresh air and enjoy the fair junk food and not have to leave after 5 mins of being on my feet cause I was hurting so much. It was a nice evening!!!!
Since Saturday evening I have been in a great amount of pain again with the worst of it being yesterday. I finally broke down and took some percocet last night to help with the pain so I can sleep. I do my best to not use it unless I really can't stand the pain because I feel guilty every time I take it because I know it affects the babies too. I have never felt so guilty for taking any kind of medication as I do now.
Monday I hit the 22wk mark and am excited that we've made it one more week towards our goal of a safe delivery. Exhaustion seems to be getting worse and so is the pain but as long as the babies are still going strong, and by their movements they seem to be doing great, I'm willing to endure just about anything.
Ok, so my vent for the day, week or whatever...
I appreciate the support and advice that I recieve from people when I have asked for it or they are contributing to a vent of mine. What I don't appreciate and in fact it really pisses me off is when someone who doesn't have kids or is pregnant "gives me advice" on how to deal with stresses of having children before and after they are born, how to prepare for them, what to expect when they come home and how to raise them. If you have you don't have kids and aren't pregnant then you should have an education level higher than a BS degreee for me to even think about not getting hormonal and irrate when you interject your two cents. I am a 30 y/o woman who has served in the militray for 8+ yrs, have taken care of children including babies since I was 8 y/o, and have asked and will continue to ask for help when I want and/or need it. I am not a complete dumbass so don't f*n treat me that way. I am trying so hard not to be a hormonal B*tch but some ppl are just pushing me and I am gonna end up flying off the handle and telling them how I feel in a not so nice way. So back the hell off before your feelings get really hurt. That's my vent for the moment.
Tomorrow anatomy scan of the babies praying everything will still look great.
I am a nurse and have four kids with number five due in two weeks and you are scaring even me Rose. Take it easy girl...you will know what to do when the time comes. Miss you and hope that all is going well in your pregnancy. Slice
ReplyDeleteWhy do I have you worried Slice? I make sure to take care of myself and my minions. I might not like the adjustments I have to make in order to do it but I will always put the welfare of my children before my own whether they are in my belly or in this world. I might be an experienced mother first hand but that doesn't make me stupid or incompetant and some people (especailly those that do know me) seem to think I am. I know that they think they are just trying to be helpful but they don't seem to understand that they are being obnoxious and demeaning. I never understood how hard pregnancy was til now and I know it will all be worth it in the end but I would just like the people who don't know me to back off. Especially if they just met me recently. When I do speak up ppl think that I'm just being rude or offensive but they won't take a good look in the mirror and wonder how they would feel if they were in my shoes. Congrats on the 5th lo. And completing your nursing degree. I might be bugging you after I can get my kids on a schedule to pick your brain on how you handled going to school while having such young kids. I wanna go back to school but I'm worried that between work and having the 4 babies at home that I won't be able to handle school.
ReplyDeleteI'm not worried, Rose. I said scared...I remember how you can be all up in ppl's faces. LOL. Just brought me back to the good times. Again...I know that you will do whatever is necessary to take care of yourself and your fam. It is good to let ppl know how you feel girl, but don't get your bp all elevated getting upset about it. Sometimes it is better just to nod your head and smile and basically ignore the advice, cuz it is gonna come whether you want it or not. It was hard going to school sometimes...but you do what you gotta do. So you are still in the Army then I presume. Yeah...I didnt have to worry about work...the kids and house were my job. I only had one kid, with work, and school and that wasn't too bad. I can't imagine four, although i will b attempting it toward the end of the year. I'll keep u posted. Just hang in there girl and take the pregnancy and the bs one day at a time. I'm always here if u need me.
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